GET OUTTA MY HEAD!!!

Seriously, get outta my head. You all wedge your way into my head. Get inside and then POOF you donʻt wanna come out!

So.
Yeah.
Itʻs time.

Get out!

DISCLAIMER: Iʻm crazy. Itʻs true. Not certifiable... but probably close. I am not a doctor. I am not a nurse. I am not a psychologist. Can you imagine if I was your psychologist?!? Too funny! I am not affiliated with any sort of health industry. You are reading this blog with the full knowledge that Pilialoha K. Nathaniel is not authorized by any school, institution or government to give health and medical advice. If you follow any advice in this blog it is at your own discretion and at your own risk. Okay? Nod if you agree. If you read anything past this paragraph that means you have nodded and you agree.

Youʻre still reading???

THANK YOU! You are awesome.

I am sure most of you are just like me. You have creepy crawlies in your head. You have grand ideas and amazing scenarios floating around in that mass of grey matter of your brain. You have stories and to do lists and wants and needs and... STUFF THAT IS JUST STUCK IN YOUR HEAD.

Itʻs time to get it out.

I am not sure how you will go about doing that but this is what Iʻll be doing my CANS:

C - CLARITY
A - ACTION

N - NO FEAR
S - SYSTEMS

CLARITY 
I am an overthinker. I process and vacillate and pick apart things until ... well sometimes until itʻs too late. I waste time, thinking. I think Iʻm thinking for Clarity but Iʻm really just mudding everything up. So... I am cleaning house. I am clearing out the over processing. 

This goes in hand with all the other "CANS". Clarity happens when I focus on the task at hand and take action immediately! If it is not important enough to take immediate action then it is probably not that important and can be cleaned out and filed away. I will set clear goals and I will set them high. I will attain my goals.
I will attain my goals by taking...

ACTION 
"If you are going to fail, FAIL BIG!" -Mrs. Sharon Abrigo, Retired Theatre Teacher and AWESOME WOMAN. "FAIL FAST." - Justin Williams, House Flipping HQ. "If you set your goals ridiculously high and itʻs a failure, you will fail above everyone elseʻs success." - James Cameron.

Oh... I could go on with the quotes but you came hear to read what I think! I will never FAIL unless I TRY. I will never succeed either. Unless I take ACTION... there is nothing. I am nothing but words and dreams of words and wordy dreams. 

HOW will I take ACTION? I am a MOTHER, a WRITER and a REAL ESTATE INVESTOR and AGENT. I am all over the place!!! I NEED focus (see Clarity above). With more focus I will accomplish the following goals in 2016 with NO FEAR:

1. FAMILY FIRST (not really a goal as much as an IDEAL)
2. PUBLISH BOOK
3. PUBLISH 2nd BOOK
4. Get AT LEAST 15 properties CLOSED!

NO FEAR!!! 
I am a cautious person. I run scenarios in my head all day everyday. I over think! (See Clarity) Thinking is fine. I suggest you all do a bit of thinking in your day to day activities. The same with Fear. Fear is healthy. 

ME? Too much. I think myself in to a corner. I think myself into being AFRAID! I need to ACT with NO FEAR! 

How to do all of this and still keep sane?

SYSTEMS. 
Successful people have systems. How to get from A-B or How to make a certain amount of money or How to publish a book... There are methods out there that I need to find and stick to. 

So... for the book I am currently following a fellow by the name of Chandler Bolt. 

http://www.self-publishingschool.com

There are many other how-to books out there but he comes highly recommended by Hal Elrod, another author I follow.

So, if youʻre like me and you are stuck... Make 2016 the year of CANS. 

You and I CAN achieve Clarity. 
You and I CAN achieve by taking ACTION. 
You and I CAN achieve with NO FEAR.
You and I CAN create SYSTEMS.

Hereʻs a little teaser of the cover...

And a pic of me and my niece Aaliyah. I miss her. 

It looks like Iʻm a scary monster coming out of her head. Or eating her head. 

Both scenarios are relevant to this blog.

Iʻm sorry Tūtū.

Iʻve been racking my brain trying to figure out what to write about my Tūtū. It suddenly came to me as I was telling my son about his Tūtū Nui...

"Iʻm sorry Tūtū."

Iʻm sorry I didnʻt stand to speak when my Dad was finished with your beautiful eulogy. The priest sorta gave me the heebeegeebeez and my timing seemed off during the entire thing. I didn't get back in the church to sit with my family. I didn't get to take communion... the priest just passed me by. Think he didn't like the fact that I was breast-feeding in church... you probably wouldn't have liked it either, Tūtū. Plus, I just didnʻt know what to say. Your passing has left me at a loss of words... And I think itʻs because I never got to say goodbye. So if you never say goodbye that means a person can never truly leave... right?

Iʻm sorry I havenʻt been around. You kept telling me I should move back to Hawaii. "Be a teacher"... you used to say. "We need more teachers"... Iʻm not sorry I didnʻt become a teacher in the State of Hawaii. Tūtū... the kukae my Mom has to deal with on the regular would make you so angry!

Iʻm sorry you didnʻt get to meet your Great-Grandson. I really wanted to place him in your arms.. Iʻm sorry we missed that moment. But I know you hold him in your heart everytime you look down on us.

Remember that handsome man you met... that is his Daddy.

Iʻm sorry I didnʻt visit more often. Alex said it correctly when we were sitting down to dinner, "Pili, you were always around. And then all of a sudden... you werenʻt." I should have been there to help you. I should have called more and talked with you more. I am sorry about all the time I missed with you these last fifteenish years. I moved away without thinking how much I would miss. I am blessed with great experiences and a loving and amazing family... but I missed you. I missed seeing you.

I know you would say not to live your life with regret... but the truth is that I regret not being able to do more for you and with you.

Thank you for being my Tūtū.

Now, no more apologies...

Our beautiful Tūtū.

I love you Tūtū. I miss you.

Love,

Your Granddaughter,

Pilialoha



Your Great-Grandson... looking up. Looking for you Tūtū.